My first gold stars

So as I sit here eating popcorn after I had a fatty hamburger for lunch and gained a pound and a half after 2 days at my mom's house, I do not get a gold star on the health management goal. BUT, I do get 2 gold stars on the anxiety and envy goals. Two of my great fears have been dealing with my kids overnight at someone else's house and having to stop in a strange place with both boys to use the bathroom. Both fears were faced this weekend and my anxiety level has been greatly reduced.

We went to my mom's house to try the spend the night thing. I want so much for my boys to be able to go spend weekends at her house to not only give us a kid free weekend (envy!) but to also give her some alone time with the boys. I realize the kid free weekend may be down the road a bit but we have to get used to staying and functioning at Mimi's house before we get there. Another reason this was an important step was that I have dear friends who live out of town. One of my closest friends just lives 4 hours away. We have stair step kids. 3.5, 2.5, 1.5, and almost 1. Plus, for now, she is a teacher too so visiting on school breaks would be wonderful. I'd really like to try our first trip to Nashville this summer. The night at Mimi's house went so well. Both boys crashed without complaining. Both woke up happy and didn't want to leave when it was time to go.

My second gold star came when Mathew started crying on the drive home. He had to go potty. I tried to blow it off and he forgot for a little bit but then started crying again. I decided to stop. We were only 30 minutes from home and he had a pull-up on but I knew this was something I had to do more for myself than him. I told him he'd have to walk because I had to carry Michael and for him to stay close so the cars didn't get him (I'm sure he will be on xanax by age 10....he kept telling the trucks not to get him). But he stayed by my side and we successfully used the nasty bathroom and purchased milk and a soda. He showed the guy in line behind us his sandals and his George. We have to work on stranger-danger a little bit.

I feel so much better after this weekend. I'm sure the extra vitamin D helped too.